so the end is drawing near and i have to make my final decision on if she is the one i can live with for the rest of my life, i do not want another marriage to go to shambles. then again there are moments where she is kinda crazy that makes me cringe, but what girl doesn't have a crazy gene in them. its all of what you can tolerate and live with because she really does make me a better person and she has tamed me form the partying, philandering self i use to be. before her i would work as much as i could so i could go out every night and blow all the extra cash i had made on drinks and my friends. now i work and go to school, pay for my house i have now, put into savings, and try and study as much as possible. so i think a little bit of irritation makes up for all the good she has done for me. i really have no one to talk to, shes my only friend but i don't want to tell her these thoughts because she really sensitive so any thoughts against her marriage breaks her self esteem. im just really cautious now bc of how my first marriage went down and now shes finally letting go and signing the divorce papers. last time we talked she had to throw in that her and her bf were looking at house in Springfield and asked me what the best school districts were. which i know she was asking for our daughter but it kinda urkes me that after a couple months she will move in with him. but i have a girl of almost 2 yrs and a house of my own so i cant be double standard
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