free wright 2-20-13

allot has happened since last class period, exciting news if you would say. i was driving home one night and i just had this weird feeling that i need to stop into this jewelry shop look around, i had been looking for a engagement set for some time now but none were what i was looking for. i looked around for 15 min when i came to the case, 2nd shelf  left display box, 2nd row over 3rd down. it sparkled and called out to me, i have finally found it. only thing about rings are the price, i was cautious to ask the price due to trying not to look so cheap. my mouth dropped at the price. a clearance set really, i couldnt believe it only 408 for the set when i just seen the same set at zales for 1300. i took that as a sign and i couldnt pass it up. it was like the part in harry potter where he took that potion and he just knew everything he did would lead to the out come he wanted. i just wanted to make sure she would like it so i did what did with the other thousands of rings we looked at i showed her a picture and played it off like i was sold on it, when really it was in a box on my shelf. that night her and i didnt feel tired like normal, i asked her to go for a drive, to get some snacks. some how we ended up at fastnigth park were we had our first date and at that moment the sky opened up and released the white powder. i knew she always wanted to be proposed to in the snow. i had to monopolize on thjis option, so i shot a text to my kneece to meet me there so she could hide and take a couple of photos. we walked around the park and found the light poll in the middle and the spot seemed amazing

free wright 2-6-13

iv been waiting to file my taxes for about a week and a half bc my ex wanted to file with me like last year. she begged and begged me last year bc she ended up getting triple the amount, well this year when it looked like she would be better off not splitting what she received she told me never mind. but luckily this is the last year i have to deal with her, i am using the money i get back from taxes to file the divorce. she is not worth the head ache anymore so ill take a loss on a couple hundred to get rid of her once and for all so i can proceed with the marriage. im still kinda scared and cautious about getting married again but i want a family and i see myself with her. she kinda drives me bonkers most the times but every girl has that one thing that picks at you so what iv learned from 1 failed marriage is do not sweat the small stuff. let i troll off and keep moving unless your wear you wanna be, and in that case you plant yourself and be that unmovable rock so she can push off of you to be better. she is always telling me its easier for me to leave bc every one does, id say shes almost as scared as commitment as i am, but i hide my fears. shes not as trained as i am at hiding emotions or thinking logically, shes a spurratic  and emotional driven woman.but what women isn't, on top of her being a red head

sensory poem

The sky darkening as the clouds roll in

The Grass so soft on my bare feet

The Road glistening in the reaming sun 

The Tree’s sway in the wind rolling in

People laughing and playing before the storm

The Exhaust fumes drift over to my nose

 As Fresh rain smell feels the air

I smell New car scent as I roll my windows up

My Cologne from my shirt hints through the rest

vanilla cinnamon cookies smell so good as I walk into my home

fresh baked Cookies dance on my taste buds

Beer  washing them down

Burger that I just grilled having a burnt taste

I burp and I taste the Waffles I had this morning

The Soda fizzes in my mouth

People talking in the next room

I can hear Credence Clearwater revival coming from a passing car from my window

A Movie plays in the front room as my guests kick back

The Dogs barking at the wind blowing the screen door

The Cats meowing at the guests giving them attention

I touch her soft face as I kiss her lips

 In my office I roll the Leather chair away from my desk

Exposing my keyboard so I can shut my computer down

The Wool jacket hung on the back of the chair

I watch The rain rolling off of My car

free wright 2-4-13

so the end is drawing near and i have to make my final decision on if she is the one i can live with for the rest of my life, i do not want another marriage to go to shambles. then again there are moments  where she is kinda crazy that makes me cringe, but what girl doesn't have a crazy gene in them. its all of what you can tolerate and live with because she really does make me a better person and she has tamed me form the partying, philandering self i use to be. before her i would work as much as i could so i could go out every night and blow all the extra cash i had made on drinks and my friends. now i work and go to school, pay for my house i have now, put into savings, and try and study as much as possible. so i think a little bit of irritation makes up for all the good she has done for me. i really have no one to talk to, shes my only friend but i don't want to tell her these thoughts because she really sensitive so any thoughts against her marriage breaks her self esteem. im just really cautious now bc of how my first marriage went down and now shes finally letting go and signing the divorce papers. last time we talked she had to throw in that her and her bf were looking at house in Springfield and asked me what the best school districts were. which i know she was asking for our daughter but it kinda urkes me that after a couple months she will move in with him. but i have a girl of almost 2 yrs and a house of my own so i cant be double standard