free wright 1-23-13

so i thought college was going to be allot harder than what it has been, im not saying its easy because im working 6 days a week,48 hours aweek, school for 15 and then home work. on top of all that i have a home life to consider and then drills for the military. but im kinda liking the whole coming to class, all throughtout highschool english was my weakest subject and math was my strongest. now it has flipped tables, im really enjoying english and math is kicking my butt. but i guess after 5 yrs some people change, maybe i just have english set out the best with 3 class piords so its not liek overload or cram. my buisness classes are kind of dry but i goota get through them. my home life is trying to progress along a little quicker than id like, taylor keeps trying to guilt me into marriage and a baby. to be honest it scares me to hell since my first marriage went down the drain so fast id hate to have a kid with her and turn out i really dont wanna be with her.
maybe thats me trying to stay solid in a world of m,otion and change, or maybe thats my heart telling me what im to afraid to say aloud. i find myself thinking of 3 future scenarios, 1 being a local police officer, 2 going and doin private security over seas making 100+ a yr or switching to active duty for the security.
im not gonna lie i wanna start a family, a life and be able to say yes im where i wanna be, i guess i just have commitmetn issues. it took for so long to start college because money was a big factor to me and i didnt wanna sacrafice time to work and make money. she helped me relize that school can make money for me aswell, just do it she said....so here i am in fulltime trying to keep everything in order and not be my procrastinating self i normally am.i find i dont have all the excess time for my hobbys and what i love but
short term loss equals long term gain